So I was talking to God about some things as I'm want to do, struggling with wanting two different things that seemed very contradictory to each other. As far as my logical mind analysis was concerned, these two things were contradictory and while neither was bad, I couldn't see a reasonable way to have both. But then God surprised me by saying "You know, you can have your cake and eat it too." (I'm being intentionally vague here because the actual things I want isn't the point, and would take too much explanation. If you really want to know ask me about it later.)

God is bigger than that. Bigger than whatever contradictions and pitfalls that we imagine for ourselves. I was so caught up logistics and practicalities that I forgot this this is the God who gave Abraham and Sarah a son in their old age. Who led the Israelites with pillars of cloud and flame. My concerns seems silly that light.

But I think the biggest comfort comes, not from the fact that the can, but that he is willing to. He wants to. 

“Ask, and it will be given to you; seek, and you will find; knock, and it will be opened to you. For everyone who asks receives, and the one who seeks finds, and to the one who knocks it will be opened. Or which one of you, if his son asks him for bread, will give him a stone? Or if he asks for a fish, will give him a serpent? 11If you then, who are evil, know how to give good gifts to your children, how much more will your Father who is in heaven give good things to those who ask him!
- Matthew 7:7-10

Why is it so hard for us to believe this? For us to really believe that God doesn't just want our obedience but that he wants us to be happy. What parent doesn't want their child to be happy. Why is it so unreasonable for us to think that our good Father is interested in giving us good things?

So yeah. Watch me have my cake and eat it too. Because I'm going to enjoy it.

The Facts Are These:

I decided to restart this blog because A) I'm still paying for the domain and I might as well do something with it and B) Because sometimes I want to put something more substantive online that isn't my tumblr and twitter/facebook. 

Updates on here will be pretty sporadic, but I'm going to try and be better about not abandoning it.  As someone smarter than me has said, "If writing is a muscle, then this is my gym." I can't guarantee entertainment, insight, or even good writing (although it may sneak in here and there). 

What you can expect from here is mostly just thoughts and questions and me sorting stuff out in my mind. As the tagline says, this will me be navigating through stuff and such. And if you'd like, you can watch me navigate. Or not. Whatever.